"All the things in this world are gifts and signs of God's love to us. The whole world is a love letter from God" ~ Peter Kreeft
It is in my nature to be a giver I think. I enjoy being able to give gifts to others, or help out a person(s) in need, to give without expecting anything in return. It is not as easy though for me to receive.
I am sure it is my pride. I want to be able to say that I can take care of it and I didn't have to ask for help. It is a lesson that God has been teaching me the past few weeks. Teaching me how to be humble and grateful and willing to accept a "gift" when it has been given to me.
Today was another one of those times.
When I went to get the kids from daycare I was talking with Markel and before I left she says to me that someone paid for the next 2 weeks of our daycare costs.
So she says it again....and I start to cry (of course!!) She says someone contacted her and asked what we pay for a weeks worth of child care and said they would be sending her a check. And she has promised to keep the donor anonymous.
I am just overwhelmed here. I don't know that I can find the right words to express the depth of my gratitude that someone would do this for our family. I don't understand it and the prideful part of my heart is frustrated that we would even need it in the first place.
But overall I am feeling so humbled and amazed at God's faithfulness.
You see the past week has been especially tough for me. I have allowed my mind to focus on the negative and I had stopped believing that God's faithfulness could extend to our family. I was upset about our circumstances and tired of trying to act positive. I was certain that things would not be ok.
Boy does it take a lot of energy to be mad at God! I knew the truth but because I couldn't see it or tangibly feel it in MY time, I fought against it.
But in spite of me and my pride and anger God showed up in the form of this beautiful anonymous giver. The Body of Christ in its truest sense.
I don't know who you are...or if you even read here and I wish that I could say thank you in person...but since I can't I hope that you know that this means more than you could possibly know.
And when we are in the position again we will pay the gift forward - until then I am praising God for His Body of believers.